Sleepless dreams

    "If you carry your childhood with you, you never become older" -Tom Stoppard

It's 4.30 am and I seem to be sitting here in darkness, sleepless with the mid summer night heat breathing down my neck. What's bothering me? Nothing in particular, and somehow, it's every little thing! 

Life seemed so uncomplicated when we were young. It was like sliding down rainbows and licking off cotton candy. So when did it start getting all complicated?

Don't misunderstand me. I don't have a sob story in Life. In fact, I am one of those lucky brats who is blessed with everything. Loving and close knitted kith and kin, loyal friends, dream job, and a few passions to call as hobbies. I am not miserable, not starving, and i am clothed and roofed comfortably.

So, what's the complication, you ask? Like i said, nothing in particular.

I just loved being a kid, with the wind through my hair, running, running, like there's nothing to tie me down. I didn't realize how much i'd miss out when i grew older. Just to think of all those days i wished, i were older...and now i'd do anything to go back in time and take Life a wee bit slower!

Just sitting here mesmerizing my childhood days made me forget the sticky sweat laden over my forehead,now trickling down. Instead it made me smile, just to remember that 10 minute recess period when my friend and i got drenched in the pouring rain from head to toe and ran down a slope, carefree....the time we played "house" using coconut shells as utensils and mud as rice!....the times i played the crazy "mad-balloon" game with my sisters and laughed like there was no tomorrow!....the bedtime "Krishn" stories my Achan used to animatedly narrate...the time when i disobeyed my granny who told me not to play under the coconut tree and the very next moment a baby coconut fell on my head, teaching me a lesson!....the many times my Amma took extra care of me when i fell sick and sang to me in the sweetest of voices her chinese melodies.

Time. A constant variable! An irony itself. Would I want time to stand still? Probably not, because if it did I wouldn't have anything to look back at, and be grateful for!

I look at the time again, It's 4.55am. It's 25 minutes from when I began, and I am 25 minutes older! Aaah, what the heck, I am 25 minutes wiser and probably sleepier too!